Im sure like everyone i have my good days and my bad and my in between days. if i am honest i am not sure what today is somewhere between in between and bad.

I watch countless youtube, tik tok and the such and i watch them with a trace of jealousy as so far i have found nothing i am good at and have no talent that i have discovered. i do somethings badly and somethings ok but nothing great and it frustrates the hell out of me and i wont lie it hurts.

i inflict the hurt myself with my expectations and in a lot of ways the pain is worse as sometimes the harshest critic is yourself.

so every morning i wake and lay there and tell myself ok just start by putting one foot in front of the other as today could be the day, and i repeat that every day