People are complex different and interesting, some ooze confidence either as a front or because they are that sure of themselves,

They have the ability to not back down and to stand up for themselves at the drop of a hat.

Me no thats not me I am my own worst enemy as I am too easy going, I let people let me down with no consequences.

I don’t mean I should get revenge or lash out but I should stand my ground the amount of times a customer or friend lets me down, right at the last minute with a friend when I am already at the place we agreed to meet they text and say they are not coming. Or a customer cancels less than 5 min before I’m due to start and I have already brought product if that is needed or I am just about to arrive

I just take it even though it often costs me money.

It also comes into play in conversations when I disagree with the other person. Or that person says what I’m saying can’t be right or wrong even though I know it’s right because I was there, I saw. I did it

As I write this I think it’s me just wanting to get along wanting no drama putting other people first always before me my happiness and wants.

Some might see this as a strength and it may well be but it is also a form of self sabotage and I don’t know why. I should stand up for my self more

Don’t get me wrong I can and do but by then I have moved passed the calm rational stage and moved into the seething anger which I hate so I tell myself let it go next time. And around and around it goes. Never moving forward